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name: Poh Lin...but everyone's calling me Paulinie now!!!!!! shall i just like change my name???
age: 18...gonna be 19 later in May this year *sobs* old old old!!!
location: malaysia, but temporarily got the longing to be in good ol' Ozzie...don't ask y, i don't know either!
church: CBC!!!!
Happy (always). Sarcastic. Independent. Corny. Crazy n getting krazier! Single (n lovin' it! *mwa!* but lookin' for that special someone *griNs*) Angsty...i don't think so? Hmmm...*winks* Social butterfly (*flaps my wings*). Busybody (isn't everybody?)
Loves God, books, surf brands (Roxy! n more...), chocolates, music, anime, Planet Shakers (they're the best!), The Marshes *wiNks*, Altered Frequency, dancing, swimming, travelling, ice-cream, The Incredibles!!! *woot!*, Pixar animations, Disney's "The Little Mermaid", my familyyyyyyyy (awwwwww), my friends, jazz (ooooh yes!), sushi, Maksim, GunBound, writing...i love lotsa things!
Hates errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.........haven't really thought about this yet!
read my fiction at:
http://www.fictionpress.com/~urbanchica
email me at:
pohlinzizme@gmail.com
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
hey!!! i've changed the location of my blog...hehehhehe...right now i've switched to xanga...but might check out blogspot....tentatively my blog location is
pohlinzizme's Xanga site!i took a screenshot of my desktop!!!! hehehhehehe.... 
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
gah...today's wednesday!!!! middle of the week...
was super bored in skool today...teachers didn't come in to class for ALL the periods b4 recess!! omg...so bored out of my mind!!! then after recess had FOUR periods of CHEM!!! fua lau...super sleepy man listen to teach bla bla bla bla for so long...
yesterday was the first time Yi Chuan joined us for our jamming session...hahhahaha...so I was playing keyboards and doing vocals with Phil at the same time...was fun...
and when i was driving Lillian to church, i asked her "how are you?" and she started laughing...coz she'd just commented earlier that ppl don't ask "how are you?" very much...lolz...but I DO!!!! i ask her that everytime i pick her up!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
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Friday, January 07, 2005
yay!!! it's Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...Woot wooT!!! finally!!! the weekend is here! omg...it feels like forever...have to go through the entire week of school before finally got 2 day break..and even then oso kenot slack off *sigh*
sumore now got school, nothing interesting happening...gahh....my life has become one glob of nothingness...hehehheheh...got homework....
oh righttttttttttttttttttttttttt....Tomorow's caryn's bday! we're gonna celebrate it at Pizza Uno...so the nooz will definitely be up here tomolo hahha...tonight gonna have cell group...not sure what's gonna happen...all i knoe is there's gonna b worship and then we'll all go for dinner...late dinner, as usual...*blweks*
saw Tay online for a while just now...they were in Johannesburg, at the airport, waiting to board their flight...he's fine, leg's healing...lol...sounds like they're having a great time, HE's definitely having fun! he said that God has been showing them new things, giving them new experiences...that's just awesome! they'll be heading off for the US early Feb...so nice! i'm jealous!!! grrrrrrrrrrrr *winks*
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
such such SUCH a boring morning! lolz...regretted goin school today...i actually went to school jsut for maths...and in the end, my maths teachers didn't enter class coz she wasn't around!!! grrrrrrrrrrr...so basically, since that was the only subject worth going to school for today, i kinda wasted time...and my "general paper" teacher didn't come in too!!! agggggggggggg...
STRESS! gotta study really hard this year..and that's what i'm really dreading...coz i'm an anti-study person, yet at the same time, i'm sumone who wants really good grades!!! contradictory? but hey, that's me! *winks*
Here's something I wrote...rather a spur of the moment thing though
Silence
Is all I hear. And feel
Where there was once laughter
The pitter-patter of feet
The chatter of voices
They've all gone, left
Leaving behind
This Suffocating Chasm of Silence
Is it just me?
Am I the only one who
Feels this way?
No answers
Can't seem to find any
Don't feel anything, anymore
Why?
Is my heart so empty?
Where?
Has everything, everyone gone?
I'm alone
With my thoughts
Is there someone?
Who can bring me out?
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Monday, January 03, 2005
AHHHHHHHHHHH...today was officially the 1st day of skool for 2005!!! i hate school...honestly, really, truly...don't believe me? hmph! fine! But I do!!! it's the bane of my existence...lolz....
went to pick up Sara, the Belgian exchange student in my skool, but she wasn't feeling too well plus she was tired coz she'd just returned from camp or something...so yeahh...she didn't go in the end. Then picked up Suzanne...and both of us were like "I can't believe today's the 1st day of school!" and we were both so stoned in school, seeing the familiar buildings and yet not registering them at all...
the whole day was just boring! got back Chem and Bio papers...didn't do really well...but since the exam was such a long time ago, I didn't really feel that disappointed...if I'd gotten back my results the week right after the finals, then I would've been hugely depressed about it...
then I got all freaked out...and started wondering if I should like change streams...go to Arts instead of Science...coz I don't know if I'd be able to cope with the rest of the workload for the rest of the year! i mean...the books are sooooo thick! everyone knows f6 isn't easy! but then I took a look at Suzanne's textbooks and didn't understand ANYTHING...lolz...i did, but wasn't interested...so i guess i'll just have to stick it out with Science...i foresee a lot of tears in the coming future months...tears of desperation, stress and built-up tension! gah! whoopee! i found out that i'm not the onlee one who cries when overwhelmed with stress...so yay! all this while I just thought I was a big baby...but now i know i'm not the onlee one! *phew!* that's a relief!
had dance class! picked up Pat and Suzanne...learnt back some cha cha steps..lolz...i've forgotten most of them!! grrrrrrrrrrrr...forgetful me! then sent Pat, Suzanne, Eve, Sarah home! and i went home meself!
I just pray that this year...I'll be able to put my stress and worries into God's hands...I know that's what I should do...don't worry, just work for my results...buthen always, because I really want my As, I stress myself out! I wish I could be like those people who just study all they can, take it all in stride, and just DO the exam, without fearing anything! Summore there's so much to study! and my teachers have already said that they won't be able to finish the syllabus!! OMG!!! then we have to self-study what they can't finish! how la my exams????
I just pray that for once in my life, I'll be able to just entrust all these thoughts into His hands and just work on the studying part without letting myself worry!
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
omg omg omg!! it's Jan the 1st, 2005!!! a whole new year!!!! yay!
and yet....*sobs!* school's starting in one more day!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...*mutters "hate school, hate school, hate school"* y la skool have to start so early this year? *sigh* this is depressing!!!!
well...celebrated and did the countdown in church...then after that went for some mamak...talked to Ps. Mal...he gave me the latest news on the Marshes...they'd performed in S'pore...at Orchard Road to an audience of 30 thou!!! phwoarrr...PTL! then heard Alison and Nat fell sick (gastric), Tay got injured and had to go for an op...poor boy! *sobs* wonder how he's doing, hope and pray he and they're all fine... And it was such a blessing to hear that they actually LEFT india one day before the tsunami hit! i was SO relieved to hear that! All in God's good and perfect timing!!! Amen!
then got a gathering in Caryn's place...lolz....at 1st we onlee thought wanna have a small bunch of ppl over...buthen when we finally got there after mamak, got sooo many ppl...at least more than we'd expected....in her place edi! playing Mafia!!! fua lau!!! keng chau...
most of them left by about 1-2am...then left terk, shannie, leon, walter, philip, and us girls! watched part of a movie...then terk, shan, leon left, then ken oso left, then eve had to go oso, so sarah followed her, since she hadn't brought along any of her stuff...so there was 6 of us left then! cooked some instant kimchi mee....made Milo slushies...*yuM* and had supper!!! omg...and we'd mamak-ed earlier even! fatttttttttt...ahahahahhaha...
anyway, then we started watching "the Stepford wives"....watched 1 cd then our eyes couldn't stay open already...it was about 5:30am by then...no wonder we were falling asleep! so we went upstairs...then jumped into bed...then didn't feel sleepy nemore!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! lolz...so suzanne and lillian were talking softly and giggling away...we listened in...then slowly one by one everyone dropped asleep...then when woke up it was onlee 10:30am!!! *sigh* don't know y i got up so early..but i wasn't the earliest anyway...when i woke up, zanne and lillian were gone...so we talked in Lillian's room...then went down and had "nasi lemak" for breakies...then sat there and talked summore...the rest came down while we were watching "Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen"...so we continued with the 2nd cd of Stepford wives...then Ken came to pick us all up for lunch...we took Annie (dunno whether to add Auntie in front or not) to lunch too...she's gonna b joining us from now on...yippee!!! hahahhaha...i sound like an immature kiddo!
went out for dinner...had "Chinese wine steamboat"...ooooooo *yuMmy!* seafood steamboat! crab, mussels, scallops....*drools*
I've just realized that I'm not quite so self-conscious anymore. It's good, coz I've always been prone to comparing myself to my friends and finding myself lacking in something or other. So in other words, I've always been insecure, just that I don't show it, so some people reading this might go "huh?". But yeah, I compared myself to others...like "she's prettier", "she's more popular", and I used to be really self-conscious about what others might think of me...stuff like that. It seems as if I'm not doing it anymore...and I really welcome that. So that's something good out of my holz...besides the other good stuff that's happened, that is. This change came about after I met the Marshes (+Tay) and Zanne's cuzzen from Sydney, Lydia...iono y, but somehow I just feel more confident nowadays...I talked to Zanne and Lillian about it today...now it's like I feel so much freer, I can just be myself without having any worries about how other ppl might look at me...so...PTL! heheheheheh *blweks*
this New Year was quite a sombre one...because of the tsunami that killed so many people...i think the life count right now is about 150,000 lives (around the world)...it's sad, but people here are making an effort to donate and contribute to the victims so that they'd have aid in terms of money, food, clothes...it's great seeing the M'sians working together to help these people...so I pray for these people that they'll get back on their feet quickly, with the help and aid of those who weren't victimized by the tsunami...
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Friday, December 31, 2004
shalalalalalalallaa....in the morning........
lolz...Lilly's made that song stuck in me head!!!! grrrrrrrrrr...bad girl! wkakakakakka...
today went to watch Phantom of the Opera...in short POTO!!!!! wahhhhhhhhh...sooooooooooo nice!!!!! i lurve the show!!!! all the main characters not bad la....i liked the phantom tho....his singing sounds raw, powerful...angry...got emotions behind his voice la....buthen when he took off his mask.........*shudder* freaky face man!!! but they could've made him a lot uglier tho...hahahahhaha...with the mask on, he actually looked HOT! lolz...Raoul...good-looking, but stupid lookin hair! eiyerrrr....like mine when it was chin length!!!
Emmy Rossum....chun chick! Leon's was almost salivating when she was singing and wearing that peasant girl skirt!!! wkakakaka...i love her hair!!! her singing was ok la...nice...good voice...but she's still got a long way to go before she can match up to Sarah Brightman's version...but then again she's onlee 18 this year, and filmed POTO when she was 16!!!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!!! when I was 16, i was....doin stupid stuff in skool!!! ahhahahah...she's got doey, biiiiig brown eyes, pale skin, looks super innocent and vulnerable wan...wahhhhhhhh...*sighs* she and that actor for Raoul look really good together...
and the costumes, the sets were superbly done!!! nice nice!!!! i adore this movie!!! muss go watch again!!!!!!
All I Ask of You (from POTO)....sooooooooooooo nice this song!!!!! Emmy sounds really dreamy and in love here...phwoarrrr!!!!
RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry -your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me with you, now and always . . .
promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .
RAOUL
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .
CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me . . .
RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you from your solitude . . .
Say you need me with you here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go, let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask of you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .
say the word and I will follow you . . .
BOTH
Share each day with me, each night, each morning . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .
RAOUL
You know I do . . .
BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask of you . . .
(They kiss)
Anywhere you go let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask of you . .
(CHRISTINE starts from her reverie)
CHRISTINE
I must go - they'll wonder where I am . . .
wait for me, Raoul!
RAOUL
Christine, I love you!
CHRISTINE;
Order your fine horses!
Be with them at the door!
RAOUL
And soon you'll be beside me!
CHRISTINE
You'll guard me, and you'll guide me . . .
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Today's entry title sounds so much like those books I used to read "My Life As A...." you get the picture...great books they were too!
Today, woke up at 10am coz I set my phone alarm yesterday...but I went back to sleep! Predictable little me! lolz...can't resist sleeping...coz I know I won't be able to do much of it once school starts! Grrrr...me hate school! and yet I keep thinking that after this one more year, I can leave Seafield forever! yay! kewlies!
Auntee Mei Yong picked me up at about 12pm...then we set off to Suzanne's house...we'd arranged to meet there the day before...Ken was gonna come pick us up for Korean BBQ! yay! Eve's Christmas present to us! We were there earliest, so we waited...made a mocha for Auntee Karen, milo for both Sarah and myself...and Ken came with the guys...Lizzie was running a little late so we had time to sit and drink down our hot milos!
Finally we left Zanne's place at about 12:45pm I think...then we weren't really sure how to get there..but we made it anyhow! Eve and Ken make a good team! lolz...the Korean BBQ place is somewhere in Ampang...so Ken was just guessing his way there with the aid of a small map, which I'm not very sure if it was helpful or not...then we made it! the food was yummy! Eve ordered the food, coz we weren't sure what was good! Had beef, chicken, then the entree dishes, which were really good btw! I loved the taufu with chilli! Lydia (Suzanne's cuzzen from Sydney) liked the potato n apple salad! hahahah...then we had Kimchi (spicy soup with glass noodles, veg, some other stuff like slices of meat)...1st time eating it! i liked it tho! *yuMmiezZ!* Lydia said it was really hot! she gave her bowl to zanne after a few sips! She's a fun girl, that Lydia!
then after the BBQ, we went to KLCC...Lydia wanted to get jeans, so we like browsed around...but the stuff there was pretty ex! this is my 1st time to KLCC this holz, btw...uhmayzing ryte!! hahah...so that was it! our little trip/outing to KL! wakakkaka...it was fun!
MY BRO GOT STRAIGHT As FOR HIS PMR!!!! AMEN FOR THAT!!! i knoe he was feeling pretty nervous the day before the results were coming out...so I really praise God that he got good results...coz he studied hard before the exam...prayers answered!
I was reading Lilly's blog juss now...and she said some things that really made me think...she's so young, and yet the way she thinks is really matured...and she really loves God, that's such a kool thing! I mean, sure I think about it a lot, but I don't worry about it (come to think of it, I don't worry about things much, except maybe exams! *winks*), coz I definitely know God's always there for me. He's never let me down ever before...I think I've had a pretty easy life compared to some other people I know, but I consider that a blessing...it just so awesome that I have a Father, Friend and ultimately, Saviour, that's present 24/7, listening to me, watching over me, providing for me, sticking with me even when I'm not being exactly devoted (if you know what I mean?) All in all, I just thank Him every day for giving me the things I have, for making me who I am, for putting the people that I know around me, for giving me numerous opportunities to do and try new things...it's just such an awesome overall feeling to know that I'm His child! Amen!
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
wakakkakakaka...lemme recap...yesterday went PD (Port Dickson), ate yong tau foo for lunch *YuM* and then went swimming after cleaning up the apartment! so long never swim edi!! hahahah...nice! then went shopping...didn't know PD can go shopping wan leh?? had dinner....good food...then online-d for a while back at the apartment..now cheaper edi! RM2 for 1 hour...last time was RM5 i think! then todayyyyy...went shopping in a diff place before leaving PD to come back to Subang...heheheh...ate lunch in Sri Melur Jaya (USJ17)...evening about 4:30pm Eve picked me up, went watch Kung Fu Hustle...dumb show la...dunno what runs through Stephen Chow's mind...lolz...funnee la, but at the same time quite stupid lo...hahahah...
then after the show, William and his 2 bros, and my bro went play DOTA...*sigh*...guys and their DOTA...hahahah...their new girlfriend edi! we girls (Zanne, Eve, Sarah, Liz, and me) went eat "dinner" in Syed (SS19) opposite Sri Melur Jaya (SS19)...Zanne and I shared a kuey teow goreng...Liz had tom yam!!! surprise surprise...hahahahha...we sat there and chatted for quite a while...had sort of a mild, intense talk, the content of which I choose not to divulge here...*shhhHhHhh*...then Eve sent me home...got back at about 10:45pm...2molo goin Korean BBQ!!!! yay!!! hahhaha...can't wait!!!
this is a thought that has been haunting me for the past week or so...How do you know for certain if you're really in love, or is it merely a crush/infatuation?
So far, no one has given me a really "profound" answer...I guess it's one of those questions where there isn't a definite answer...is there? I'd certainly like to know. I've always wondered about it, it's just that now the question's really haunting me, stuck in my mind, refusing to leave me alone...don't know why though. Is this good or bad?
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
oh man oh man!!! CHristmas has come and gone! Can you believe it??!?!? that's like super fast!!! n i dun wanna go back to skool!!!!!!!!!! guess I'm gonna keep "whining" about this until school actually starts n i have no choice but to GO to school!! wkakakakak...
morning...went to Tropicana for the Christmas service!!!! got to meet up with the Seapark ppl....with Julian...see some faces I've not seen for a very long time! oh, and we exchanged gifts too!!!! yay!!! presents!!! hua hua hua *winks* went to eat lunch in IKEA...i had roast beef!!!!! Lillian had the Swedish meat balls..we kinda like split half-half, so we got to eat 2 diff meals...*YuM* *yuM*
we had carolling again! 1st house was Unc. Suah's house...dunno how to spell his surname...he has a really nice house!!! with this nice big verandah overlooking the backyard, which is already quite out of the norm for Malaysian houses! and he played those "natural, tropical forest" sounds...u know, crickets, water..that kinda thing...really gave his house this cozy atmosphere!
so many of us were tired...either that or falling sick...my own voice was feeling as if it was gonna die! then after we finished our stint in Unc. Suah's house, Anne did a group prayer...and next we went to Auntie Allison's house...suddenly our voice were soooooo much better!!! PTL! heheh...i mean, we REALLY sang...and everyone sounded wide awake and energetic...whoahhh...*claps for self* hahahhaha...3rd house was Huei Wern's uncle's house....on the way to his house, we turned into his road....and the corner house was also having a christmas party...for a moment there, we thought we were supposed to perform in THAT house and we were like "noooooo...soo many ppl!!!"...then we saw that the house number was wrong and it was like such a HUGE relief!! wkkakakakkaa...our performance in HW's uncle's house was good too!!! ate ate and ate the entire night! now i feel really FAT! hahahahhaha
then came home, watched TV a while to see if there were any Christmas programmes....on 8tv, they were showing this "Malaysian Idol CHristmas Show"...something like that...Andrew, Victor, Vick and Jac got RM1250 from RHB Bank to give out for CHristmas!!! so it was like showing their "journey" on how they spend the money...who they gave it to...that kinda thing...at the end of each of the "journey"s, they sang a CHristmas song...Jac sang "O Holy Night"...NICE!!! but then again, she IS a our Malaysian Idol after all!!! then during the show they played B.E.P. "Where Is The Luv?"...i tell you, I can't listen to that song now without the Marshes+Tay coming into mind!!! lolz...it's like permanently etched into my mind...summore their performance was so much like the "ori" version! *sigh*
now having some problems with my MSN public profile...ArGh!!!! haih....dunno la...later tonight's the Christmas PARTAYYYYYYY!!!!! woot woot!
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